So, my life.
As you all know I have been planning on joining YWAM staff. But I wasn't sure where The Lord was going to have me staff. So I started working towards staff at the Kansas City base.
So I was praying, "Lord, I'm moving forward with Kansas City, if this isn't where you want me show me where to go." And guess what? He did! I know it's silly of me to assume He isn't going to answer in the way I ask Him to.
So, I started praying about this the last week of March. One night I had a dream, in the dream I was staffing the Compassion Ablaze DTS in Kona, Hawaii. I woke up the next morning and just kind of brushed it off. That night I called my friend Grace who is in Kona we were chatting and all of the sudden she says, "Hannah, I wasn't going to talk to you about this until I got to Kansas City. But I feel like The Lord wants me to say it now, I think you are suppose to be in Kona and I think you are suppose to staff the Compassion Ablaze DTS. I've already talked to leadership about you, and they have been praying over you" My reaction, "excuse me?" I hadn't told her about my dream at this point so it kind of took me off guard. And then she went on, "do you remember the day that you bought your car, what you said to me when you got home?" So she reminded me of our conversation;
Grace: What's wrong?
Me: I feel like I am going to throw up.
Grace: Why?!
Me: Because I bought my car, I knew I wasn't suppose to and I did it anyways!
Grace: Why do you think you weren't suppose to buy it?
Me: Because I'm going to be in Hawaii in a few months anyways.
Grace: What makes you say that?
Me: I have no idea.
I had totally forgot about this conversation. So, after we got off the phone I started praying about it and The Lord reminded me that in September I felt like I was suppose to go to Hawaii, but I couldn't because of my car payments, so I just totally shut it down. I continued to pray about it over the next few days.
Then, one day at work I was on my lunch break, sitting outside and this lady I work with came out to join me. We chatted for a few minutes and then she looks at me and out of the blue says, "when are you going to move to Hawaii already? You know that's where you are suppose to be. So just stop being a chicken and go already." *jaw drop* and another "Excuse me?" Moment. I just looked into the bag of chips I was enjoying and slowly kept eating them. And she says, "are you going to do it?!" I had not said anything to her about Hawaii. Jesus was obviously trying to get my attention.
That night I sat down with my parents and we prayed. All three of us having so much peace about this. So I started to get so excited. I kept having this conversation with The Lord of "is it really my turn?! Do I really get to go on adventures and do what I feel like you've called me to do?!" The answer is yes. :)
I was talking to Mom and Dad a couple days later and I told then about the, "is it really my turn" feeling and Dad says, "Why didn't you feel like it was going to ever be your turn?" Great question Dad way to make me examine my heart. And my answer was, "I guess I have always struggled with feeling like I don't play a vital role. In friendships, in our family and just in the day to day. It's not that people don't love me, but I'm not needed. I guess I have put that on The Lord as well." His reply? "Well that's a load of crap." Hahaha I love my father. :)
The next day was my interview at the Kansas City YWAM base. I went in somewhat nervous to tell them that I wasn't going to be joining them. I sat down with the base leader and just told him all of the things that had transpired in the last week. He was so excited for me and told me that he felt The Lord on this and that he was proud of me. Then, he prayed for me. As he was praying for me he says, "I see a picture of a soccer field and you are sitting on the bench. And you keep asking The Lord when you get to play. He is saying, "it's your turn" and the reason that He hasn't played you yet is not because you aren't important, it's because He needed you to gather strength and build your faith. You haven't missed out, because he is playing you now at just the right moment. It's your turn."
I of course started bawling because I hadn't mentioned to him that I felt that way, it was a kiss from Jesus saying, "I see you and you are moving forward in what I have for you!" Mind blown. Haha.
So, I put in my application for YWAM Kona and I received my acceptance letter about a week ago. I have purchased my airline ticket and I fly out July 3rd!!
The Lord has been so faithful in all of this. YWAM requires me to have $1000 of monthly support. I am currently at $450 of monthly support. I would appreciate your prayers for me in raising the additional $550 in monthly support. I know our God is faithful. And I know he will provide. If you feel The Lord leading you to partner with me financially in anyway email me at: hannahbethwarfield@gmail.com or call me: 8168540036 . I will gladly answer any questions!
I also have a PayPal account you can go in and give a gift, my PayPal email is: buried.inmusic@yahoo.com.
Thank you all for your continual prayers and support!
